Jogging!

I really do surprise myself sometimes.

These past days weren't what you would call desirable days since I was left with nothing but more disappointments and depression. It wasn't entirely self inflicted but you know when people tell you stuff you really don't want to hear and it keeps on coming back to your head like a broken record, that really sucks. So, basically that's what happened.

Thank God, that's all over now and I'm back to my old hopeful and positive self again.Because of the previous rather painful experience, I've come to realize that there's really nothing I can change about other people. I mean nothing. And so, what I can do is change myself. Perhaps try not to think too much of other people's comments or opinions but focus on what I can do and what really matters to me.

Needless to say, that was my ultimate turning point that helped me figure out what I will do with my days. At least, when I still have the time to spend. So, early this morning, actually it started two days ago, that I decided to wake up early and jog. You heard me right. And I was alone. I figured, I really didn't have to go to the gym since I wanted to commune and maybe have a silent retreat for myself through jogging just around the neighborhood. Well, not really my neighborhood because there's too many cars around so I had to go to another neighborhood where it was quiet and peaceful not so far from my own.

I set my alarm at 5:30AM that way it wouldn't be too early that I would change my mind about my new found self healing. So, my alarm went on and on for about 15 minutes until I got up. Of course, I was still half unconscious. My mind was still literally falling off the bed. But, I had to get myself up and start fixing. I drank half of my coffee and headed outside complete with my jogging shoes, shirt, leggings and cap. I was ready.

I was really excited. People are starting to clean their yards, fix themselves, some even cook for breakfast outside, wash their cars, opened their sari-sari store. It was a brand new day after all!  But, taking from this is something really liberating because this was one routine that I can call my own. No one could interfere with me, nature and my God. I didn't have the pressure of sharing it. No talks or chit chat necessary. It's all about me and my well sought after peace. Not to mention all the health benefits it could give.

I am calm.