Tuesday thoughts!

This is just one of those days that I'd want to clear myself of from anything negative, anything that could affect my day in the worst possible manner.  Truth is the more I tell myself I want to get out of a certain mess, the more I am reminded that I am in a messy situation. I really don't want to explain the whole story because it concerns about family. But it's just been hard since yesterday when this all popped out like volcano. In fact, I don't know how long it will last. Somehow, I'm thinking this will all be better in due time. (I hope.)

I think that my realization here is that it's much easier to blame others for the hurt that we are feeling. It feels so right sometimes even that one person is accountable for the bad circumstance we are in. But who are we kidding, right? No matter how we blame others or account others for our scenario, fact is we can't change what happened and neither can we change the person. Yes, we can tell the person his or her fault and get a solution but to change what has been done is impossible. So what do we do? I don't think it's fair to cast away or put a fence or judge a person just because an ego seem to have been slathered by a simple mistake. Or imprison yourself from feeling happy again because it doesn't seem right for the situation being. Worst is, there is no room for explanation or narration. All is just wrapped up in a shell that no one can correct because everything is already a period.

I must admit I was like that once but it never really made anything good out of me. I was depressed, sad and always mad at anyone and at anything. Pride is a tricky thing we have. We need it at the same time it's our worst enemy. I'd like to think that this will disappear like a bubble once time has let it pass by. As of now, I need silence and better appreciation at life and everything beautiful there is.